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please don't rip off. HOW RUDE. I WILL MAKE AN INTERNET MOCKERY OF YOU!
if you can't see the navigations, i may have to slap you virtually.
this girl has been BLISSFULLY HAPPY since 200609.
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Friday, September 4, 2009
i wait.
i don't know if you'll ever read this or not.
i don't know if you even care that much anymore.
but you promised that you'd love me forever,
and i believed you.
and i fell in love with you.
you promised that you'd never leave me,
and i believed you. and i trusted you.
and i let you.
then you left me. and im still not mad. i still love you, and i still miss you.
i can wait, you know. i can wait. i shall wait.
you say move on, where do i go?
you were the best.
so i guess second best is all i will know.
i wait.
that's what you get | 11:35 AM
Sunday, August 2, 2009
I FREAKING LOVE YOU
I LOVE YOU!
I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU!
that's what you get | 5:22 PM
Saturday, August 1, 2009
we're all part of the same sick little games;
DAMMIT I AM SO PISSED!
it's such a bloody freaking waste of my freaking time! i'm so freaking done and beat dammit.
you can forget about my freaking waiting anymore!
and i know i'm saying "freaking" more than i should, but i don't want ot use the actual word beginning with f because i am trying to not use it...
grejusdcnfvrdjsdcvgfrjeksfvgfrdescvgfrdewsefjgredlfbhgtrkew. DAMMIT!
SIGH. WHAT THE HELL.
being alone on holidays SUCKS. SUCKS. SUCKS. don't give me that "spend time with family shit" BECAUSE I SEE THEM EVERYDAY! AND I LOVE THEM TO BITS, DON'T GET ME WRONG. BUT STILL. IT'S LIKE STARING IN THE MIRROR FOR WEEKS AND DAYS AT END! WOULDN'T YOU GET BORED? CAUSE I AM!
i can't take it anymore!
sigh. be positive. be positive. be positive.
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IT'S NOT WORKING.
breathe in. out. in. out. in. out.
I'M HYPERVENTILATING BECAUSE...HVGIFMJDNVHFJRMKDVBGFRDEKCFVGFDESXDVGF
sigh
i hate it! i hate it! gbfrdesjxdcvgftrewasxdwertyui
you know what? one year when i'm old enough, i want to go holiday with my friends!frhewikajdcvfgrd
you know i want to spend time with my friends! and don't give me that "you spend time with friends in school" shit because how am i supposed to spend time with them if we're freaking studying most of the freaking time!
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i am sorry. i am just angry. today i am very restless. and pissed. i rushed home just to stare at an empty online page.
THATS HOW DESPERATE I AM!
WHICH JUST MAKES ME MAD!
OH SO DAMN MAD!
i never asked for this dammit.
Labels: i'm going insane, pissed
that's what you get | 6:16 PM
Friday, July 31, 2009
mariana's trench
ARGH I FREAKING LOVE MARIANA'S TRENCH AND THE LEAD SINGER IS SO HOT!
EVERYONE SHOULD JUST GO LISTEN TO ALL TO MYSELF AND GOOD TO YOU!
HAHAHAHAH. IT'S SO GOOD! I AM SO RANDOM!
you know i'm like freaking pissed? unbelievable, but it's so freaking true. dammit.
that's what you get | 5:26 PM
Thursday, July 30, 2009
this present day.
today i could be all fuck this and fuck that, and curse and swear like nobody's there (oh look, i made a rhymey-rhymey), but i won't. i could jump around and use countless exclamation marks to express points and gasp at certain points in total high-ness, but i won't. today i could be short and sad with "..." to lengthen out my "*sigh*"s and such, but i won't. today i could be mad. today i could be happy. today i could be sad.
but today i will be just me.
what i want today is fun. i want to go out with all my friends and just hang out. and CHILL. to take pictures and do lame stuff like scream and talk to random people in fake accents. and, of course, to go KTV. i am still asian (or "azn") and i have asian habits. haha. i want to fly kites. i want a pet snake. i want alot of things today. but i think fun would be enough.
what i need today is that particular remote control that they have in that movie with adam sandler. i think it was called Click or something. so i could fast forward the yucky parts, play the fun parts, and slow down the parts with you.
well, ohkay i don't really need that. but i wish i did. i wish i was like Hiro, from Heroes. with the ability to manipulate space and time. i could be like "hey mom, i'm going to hong kong for awhile, be back in five minutes?" and i could stop time during an exam and go look at sung jun's paper. so i could leave new zealand and go to singapore for awhile and then be back in new zealand in five minutes after i left.
i also wish my internet would stop disconnecting and hurry the hell up. but that doesn't sound like it flows with the post, now does it?
i don't hace school withdrawal symptoms. i do NOT wish school would hurry up and open again, because i enjoy doing nothing and sleeping in. i hate waking up early in the morning just to get to school and glare at the people you hate. the only good thing is that the people you love are there.
now this doesn't apply for me anymore. i don't hate anyone in SAS and the only people i know (and love) there are xinying and brenna. (going pudong you see.) and i'll have to wake up even earlier. i don't want school to re-open, contrary to popular opinions. i just want to be home.
where everything is familiar, and nothing is new. kind of like stopping time but everyone still living.
i just wish i was with you.
today i missed you.
Labels: i hate my internet-cafe-stolen computer, today
that's what you get | 5:39 PM
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
SUMMER. SUMMER? SUMMER.
HAHAHA FINALLY FINALLY I HAVE INTERNET AGAIN.
i am sorry, ny internet suddenly stopped working for awhile but it works perfectly now. yay! anyways, in my free time (due to lack of internet access), i have been watching countless movies.
yes. like, alot. it's freaky, actually.
uhmm.
there was :
Two Weeks Notice (this is really cute)
Notting Hill (this is really realy romantic)
The Invasion (this is really scary.)
Wall-E (THIS IS SO FREAKING CUTE!)
The In-Laws (this is really lame.)
The Wedding Planner (this is romantic)
The Mummy (the one with jet li. it was ohkay...)
Wanted (i freaking love this.)
Eagle Eye (shia is hot.)
American Dreamz (......?)
and others. blah blah. summer is nice, i guess.
very boring, but the sleep is good.
mmm sleep.
heeeeee. i want to go change into my pjs....haha.
i don't want to go home! i like sleeping for long periods of time.
i miss brenna and hilary and sarah and kaka tons. hmmmm.
that's what you get | 5:07 PM
Sunday, July 19, 2009
i've always secretly wanted to be emo.
"love is patient, love is kind. it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. it is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices in the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves." -1 corinthians 13: 4-7
funny how it isn't mentioned that love isn't fun
cause it's not.
*sighs*
anywhos. new zealand is fun, although boring. sleeping is my favourite activity, everything here is so expensive and i've no one to go around with. it's nice and cold, though.
that's what you get | 5:04 PM
