today i could be all fuck this and fuck that, and curse and swear like nobody's there (oh look, i made a rhymey-rhymey), but i won't. i could jump around and use countless exclamation marks to express points and gasp at certain points in total high-ness, but i won't. today i could be short and sad with "..." to lengthen out my "*sigh*"s and such, but i won't. today i could be mad. today i could be happy. today i could be sad.
but today i will be just me.
what i want today is fun. i want to go out with all my friends and just hang out. and CHILL. to take pictures and do lame stuff like scream and talk to random people in fake accents. and, of course, to go KTV. i am still asian (or "azn") and i have asian habits. haha. i want to fly kites. i want a pet snake. i want alot of things today. but i think fun would be enough.
what i need today is that particular remote control that they have in that movie with adam sandler. i think it was called Click or something. so i could fast forward the yucky parts, play the fun parts, and slow down the parts with you.
well, ohkay i don't really need that. but i wish i did. i wish i was like Hiro, from Heroes. with the ability to manipulate space and time. i could be like "hey mom, i'm going to hong kong for awhile, be back in five minutes?" and i could stop time during an exam and go look at sung jun's paper. so i could leave new zealand and go to singapore for awhile and then be back in new zealand in five minutes after i left.
i also wish my internet would stop disconnecting and hurry the hell up. but that doesn't sound like it flows with the post, now does it?
i don't hace school withdrawal symptoms. i do NOT wish school would hurry up and open again, because i enjoy doing nothing and sleeping in. i hate waking up early in the morning just to get to school and glare at the people you hate. the only good thing is that the people you love are there.
now this doesn't apply for me anymore. i don't hate anyone in SAS and the only people i know (and love) there are xinying and brenna. (going pudong you see.) and i'll have to wake up even earlier. i don't want school to re-open, contrary to popular opinions. i just want to be home.
where everything is familiar, and nothing is new. kind of like stopping time but everyone still living.
i just wish i was with you.
today i missed you.
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